What is a challenge you never want to face?

This time, when it finally goes, I never ever want to see it's face. I don't want to see faces of sympathy around me.

Anything but a bad me

Sleepless nights, constantly changing positions, sleepy days, stuck to the bed, the urge to hide,

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Sounds, loud music, banging doors, a ringing moblie phone, the early mornings I had to stuff my ears with earbuds because I couldn't bear the chirpings.

Medications that would put me to sleep and activate the dull me, the injections, the pain I accepted and got used to.

Happier, better and free is all I wanna be.

I’m wondering about attachment and transference with the therapist and the idea of escape and fantasy? How much do you think your strong feelings, constant thoughts, desires to be with your therapist are a way to escape from your present life? I wonder if the transference serves another purpose than to show us our wounds and/or past experiences, but is a present coping strategy for managing what we don’t want to face (even if unconsciously) in the present—-current relationships, life circumstances, etc. Can anyone relate to this concept of escape in relation to their therapy relationship? How does this play out for you?

Consistent doctor visits, heavy meds and for the span of over a year,

What is a challenge you never want to face?

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